STAY CLOSE.. DONT GO.

it shouldn't probably end. but ill be missing him so much. i almost forgot. he's already going to college now. which means, enough for the high school mingling with him. maybe enough for the childish sweet romances.  enough for the "almost-everyday" time together. is it over? it shouldn't be over.

I fear the mere fact that he will be somehow away from me. somehow miles away though were not. it really hurts. it rips my heart into two, realizing that he'll be sooner away from me, that he'll leave me in my misery. he's the greatest joy in my life. ill be in the state of agony .. if he'll be gone for a long time. if i wont see him recently just like i used to.. it was never easy for us to be apart. it was.. NEVER that easy. 

In life everything changes. we shouldn't be stubborn. I KNOW. i know it's the natural process of a  literate man to go to college.. to prepare for his future .. to chose his own path and his own career. i shouldn't be selfish, wanting him not to go and keep the usual way we have been. i must accept it : HE's going to college a year from now. and i still have to finish this two years of high school life. i SHOULD and i should do my best.ill sooner go to college too. but probably not with him.. maybe away from him  .  away  .  but 

THIS CANT BE THE REASON FOR US TO LET GO.. this is not.

confession.

well. just .. i just want to share some of my creepy little secrets , i keep in mine. maybe these is because of the article i made "freshly-baked"from the printer a while ago :)  

it is all about the seven new deadly sins which i just discovered.. maybe a few weeks ago.but whoa.it was announced more than a year ago.. which slightly disappoint me.why? because a major announcement was made,without letting everybody knew about it. especially because this is excessively important. mostly of the inhabitants of the planet earth are catholics.and catholics are the one whose concerned about these.But not saying only us catholics. since these revisions are totally social and environment sins that affects each and everyone of us not only catholics , as i mentioned. 

well.. im not a perfect person.. nobody either. let's skip that matter :))

its quite boring..but i halfway like being here..

being a a computer shop personnel for the weekends..well it's Sunday,my last day of work,,ill be going home sooner.ill probably miss being here..ill miss the little toughies here.and the constant presence at the front of the computer without a mother yelling for me to shutdown it.haha >:D]

TOMORROW is ANOTHER day at school.. i hope it would be fun.. but im trembling right now.. because ots two days more.. :( two days..argghh... its secret .. haha!

by the way i done designing or jersey log for the school foundation day of VEL MARIS SCHOOL inc. 2009-2010

~adios amigos

why do people get jelous

someone encountered this situation..

SO THIS STARTED JUST A MINUTE AGO.. i was browsing my boyfriends facebook and found out that he uploaded some pictures from their group practice of.. uhmm i dunnow.. so i saw two consecutive solo shots of a certain girl. i told him about that. and he explained that it was nothing. just a photo taken by his classmate. I believe that there was nothing,but isnpite of that i still get jealous. i also told him that, he said that it was fine, because its a part of my love for him.

so i researched...

For me...

"Not to get to anthropological here but I think it all comes from preservation instinct. You protect and preserve what is yours. You don't want anyone taking something away from you. You might also covet what you don't have.
We must not forget the issues of selfishness and insecurity in there too"

Jealousy
When you first connected with your partner and looked into their eyes, it felt like he or she was the only person in the room. As you get deeper into your relationship and call yourselves a couple, the realization hits you: You and your partner are not alone on this planet. There are others! Are they a threat?

When we are in a committed relationship, we assume the connection we have with each other will be strong enough to fend off outside threats. In some ways, this you-belong-to-me-and-I-belong-to-you mentality is sweet; it's the stuff of pop songs and poetry. But sometimes the intensity of that connection is too strong.

When one partner sees everyone whom his or her partner comes into contact with as a potential threat, it is

a sign that jealousy has taken hold

a sign that jealousy has taken hold. Shakespeare called it "the green-eyed monster," and once it gets a hold of your relationship, it sinks its teeth in and can rip it apart.

What causes jealousy?

If you've got strong feelings of jealousy, it's probably a sign that you don't have enough trust in your partner that he or she is being faithful to you. That lack of trust may be prompted by one of four factors.

• You may feel insecure about your self-worth. In these cases, either you've been raised to believe, or some part of your inner self feels, that you just don't measure up. Because you don't love yourself, you can't believe that others would love you, so you live in fear that your partner's "true" feelings will be revealed and she will leave.
• You're prone to cheating on your partner -- maybe even have done so. Knowing what you're capable of, you project that behavior onto your partner.
• You and your partner haven't yet figured out how to
  establish safe boundaries within the relationship
  establish safe boundaries within the relationship. Having a tight bond is about building walls around your love with windows that allow others to be part of it -- not doors where competing lovers can walk right in and disrupt your home. Because you don't know what's permissible within the relationship and what's not, you're constantly on your toes.
• Your mate is cheating on you. Cheating doesn't have to include sex; it often has to do with making emotional connections to others outside the relationship. If your partner is sharing things about your private life with attractive members of the opposite sex, it robs a sense of intimacy from your relationship and leaves you feeling vulnerable.

Knowing the factors that lead to jealousy is an important first step to getting things fixed.

Put your focus on building trust

Put your focus on building trust. If you've got some growing up to do, therapy may help. Both of you have to learn how to set boundaries in the relationship. That requires respecting your mate's definition of limits of outside relationships from the start.

Over time, as trust builds, you and your partner can redefine what feels safe for the relationship. After all, when you've got a great relationship, you want to share it with the world.